I lie sometimes. I lie sometimes to make my boyfriend think he has to work a little harder to keep me around. I don't overdo it and i certainly don't go to extravagant extremes but what's good about being in a relationship when it's so easy? Doesn't everyone feel that way? I don't like drama and i don't pick petty arguments (unless the P.M.S. takes reign); in fact, i try very hard to be fair and level-headed and open-minded to my boyfriend's bad traits. But sometimes when it gets stale and the comfort zone includes sweatpants and no makeup and using the restroom with the door open; you have to bump it up a notch.
I don't know most people's boundries but the furthest mine have gone entail telling him that a friend he might feel slightly threatened by is going out with me and my perfumed entourage. I can see where this might be frowned upon but my boyfriend and I actually do trust one another, yet, the prospect of having fun with someone who has boyfriend-potential for a single girl seems to respark something. I'm pretty sure he knows I would never cheat on him and I know this because we never have arguements regarding the topic. As far as my experience takes me, that's always a good sign.
I just wish it didn't have to get to the point where I feel the need to lie. But isn't that also working for HIS affection? Does that earn me a tally mark? For caring enough to make him care?
Are men really so vital in our lives that we feel we need to dishonor ourselves in the name of love? I know love is supposed to be prideless but I thought honesty was a part of pride. Is that how we work for affections, by lying? And if so, then what is the relationship really besides a series of performances?
